belief

so, looks like believing people instead of things is what got me here in the first place.
(michel gondry is an exeption. i still don't believe in him)

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yeah well, we know the answer.


but maybe the solution is asking "why not?" instead of "why?"

i just wish it was possible to have a booklet, a manual, guide or something. you know, to hand out to people to get through all that "getting to know each other" phase.
it'd save a great deal of energy, really.

situation..

let there be work to do, but no time to tell..

to je fajn..

awareness

maybe, just maybe, it's just the awareness what's needed. everything turned out to be so well after posting the previous entry about work, illustration and future.. my etsy shop is running smoothly and i literally can't find any time to draw for myself (well, this is not actually good news but..)

but that's okay. i believe i'll sort everything out next week, after getting a decent living address :)

deep thoughts

well, not that deep maybe. but they're still thoughts, right?

i'm talking about the money stuff. actually, not exactly money. i just want my efforts to be useful to me. i cannot eat my papers and drink watercolor after all.. (or, can i?)

i've been fooling around for about a month now, looking at the illustration sites and illustrator's blog and so on. within that month, i've also been drawing everyday. they're these little illustrations of me and my "adventurous" life. but when i come to think about this, it's like a hobby or something. me as an illustrator just doesn't feel real, since i haven't done or got the chance to make a "real" illustration. i've been participating in illustration friday for 5 weeks, and it feels great. but when i look at other illustrations, they're made by real illustrators whose job is making illustrations and illustration friday is their spare time activity. as for me, it really sucks to have nothing but spare time..

with these concerns, i finally opened an etsy "shop" today. but it only made things worse. i'm looking at a blank shop page and just don't know what to do with it.

i hope i can sort things out soon enough..

welcome

i'm beginning to think that i've become too self-centered these days, and i'm also aware that it's because there haven't been any other things to be occupied with.. it's not really bothering me now but i'll need to stop that some time -and that time is not actually far away. so, why not give it a shot today?

from now on, this blog is officially for "my" inspirations, excitements, future works and stuff like that. meaning; not only about me and my "precious", little world but also about the surroundings..